call it what you will or simply call what it is….quarter-life crisis, escaping reality, running from my issues, leaving the man that i love. branded by whoever chooses, judged by whoever cares, i bought a one-way ticket to the golden coast and promised not to return without an answer. i'm not even sure what i'm looking for, honestly have no idea if i will find what i need, but the bottom line is, i'm willing to take the risk, wanting to take the dive. and for that, i have to give myself credit, right?
some have chosen to call me selfish, and that could be an accurate description of my current state of mind. but i can't allow for those negative veins of thought to flood my brain. i need to push forward. i need to take this great escape. i plan on running, running as fast as i can, until a 4x4 hits me smack in the face. and when i recover, i'll let you know if i see the great light.
due to an emptiness in my life, that has taken me quite a few years to recognize and even admit to myself, i have chosen to take this path of travel. this current journey of mine will be completely organic and unpredictable. i have no hotels booked, have done little research, and have no travel buddy. i plan on visiting friends along the way, and anticipate on having ample time to cultivate many new relationships. i am taking this world on alone, in hopes of rebuilding an ambitious girl that i once knew so well.
First Stop - Fiji
xoxo - ShannonSmile
Love you Baby! Get your rehab on! Angels be with you, Mom
ReplyDeleteI miss you already, how is it that my quarter life crisis took me to the middle of Texas and yours took you to Fiji? LOL Texas is not the same without you. I miss you best friend.
ReplyDeleteLOVE TINA
I LOVE YOU MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER! JESUS ALWAYS BE WITH YOU! STAY IN TOUCH
ReplyDeleteLOVE DAD
Love you Banana. I already miss you and it's just the start of your journey. I want to Skype with you and see all the beautiful places you get to visit I would also like to get some pictures. Miss you!!! Jesus be with you!!
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Monkey
I am sure that you will find what you are looking for. Sometimes life takes us on strange journeys. No comment. Be safe and I look forward to following all of your exciting travels. XOXOXO Betz
ReplyDeleteHi! Banana still haven't Skyped we need to Shana. I miss you.But, during Religion class we pray before we start and she asks for special intentions I always pray for Grandma Suzie and now I pray for the both of you. I hope and pray that you have a safe trip. I always think of you.I miss you Banana :(. Love you <3!!! Jesus be with you!
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Monkey
Hey Shana :) I miss you I hope your having a good time. I prayed for you today in church. Can't wait till you get home,then again its only been 6 days. But, I do hope that your having a wonderful time. Are you in Australia yet?? Email papa or post another blog. I check it everyday and look forward to what you say. I also want to Skype but not the one were you text I want to try video. Geez!! I miss you and I wish you were at home. Love U!! Send an email.
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Monkey