ghost

the girls made my stay in bondi warm, relaxed and unforgettable. lucky for me, they had already found their nitch in town. they had accumulated a great bunch of auzzie beauties as their friends, and they kindly welcomed me into their circle. 

i very much enjoyed meeting the girls for coffee every morning. then reconvening at lunch time and spending longer than 30 minutes together because we truly were enjoying each other's company. there was never a rush to what we were doing, never a better place to be than where we were, with friends. 

my two weeks in bondi taught me such a valuable lesson….

back home, even if i was enjoying my present company, in the back of my mind i always knew i had somewhere else to be, someone else i needed to see, someone else that even i needed to be. my friend ryan often referred to this characteristic as "better dealing" the situation. i was never fully engaged and i never appreciated living in the moment, because i was far too busy living in the future. i never knew how truly absent i had been. and i apologize to everyone that ever knew this ghost. 

with these ladies, there was an understood importance on spending quality time with friends. something that i just wasn't used to. i'm such a hypocrite. thinking that people should always understand why i cant attend something or why i haven't seen them in months. i mean, "i'm busy." and everyone knows it. i'm a workaholic. if one job doesn't work me 14 hours a day then you best believe that i got myself a second job, because money ran my world. friends and enjoyment always came secondary. 


i was so busy trying to plan the perfect life, that i had forgotten to live my perfect life. 

i suddenly wanted to get home, as fast as my wings could fly. i needed to make things better, i needed to mend what i had broken. but at this point, escaping yet again, was not as option. i vowed to change things, as soon as landed back in reality.  

this is piece is dedicated to three of my close friends and their children: chloe, pierce and elle. i hope when i return to be the best friend & auntie that you all deserve.

xoxo - ShannonSmile